Life Updates

God, I feel awful! To the point of, I could put thousands quote in one post. But I won't do that because it will make me look desperate. I'm just so tired that I can't even feel upset, hurt, or angry anymore. All the curse has been said and now I feel numb. Because I care a lot. And I value friendship the most. 
If someone seriously wants to be a part of your life, they will seriously make an effort to be in it. No reasons. No excuses.
And the problem is, I'm still too afraid to cut them off. Because I love them so much and I expected so much from them. God knows how many time I ask them to meet up. And there's a lot of excuses. 'I don't have anything to do at the campus' or 'I live out of town'. And that's like bullshit! I also live out of town and I will make time. I also don't have anything to do at the campus but I will come if it means I get the chance to meet them.
Now, I don't even tell them if I was in town tho'. Just to avoid being disappointed again.

ps: don't ask me why I'm treating you cold. I'm not. I just quit trying and expecting. I'm tired of getting my hopes up and being disappointed

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  1. I know special friendships are hard to come by. Just keep on being open and kind hearted and I believe the right people will find us. :)

    Marianne x www.beautiful-in-essence.blogspot.com

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