Why can people can be so cruel to their loved one?
I'm not saying that I am a good person. I can't even say whatever cross my mind out loud except in my blog because I have a heart. I don't want people hurt because what I do or what I say. I can keep my smile for people so they don't know what's inside my heart. What I really feel.
Yes. I'm probably talking about my boyfriend. I don't expect it to have some sparks or tingles whenever we touch like what they said in some romance books. But I also don't expect a relationship that feels nothing. He's not the one I had crush for like I said in my post before. And it's not even reach two months of our relationship.
And I already hate what's going on on us. If I can do it, I will scream out loud so he knows what I feel. I don't like to get text every minute of 24/7 from him just asking the same question.
"what are you doing?"
"where are you?"
Do I have my own life? Because I'm pretty sure he doesn't own it even that he is my boyfriend. He never there when I have a problem. He got mad whenever I told him that I have this problem and apologize for replying his messages rudely. He's not even bother himself to ask what's my problem. And he expects me to listen all problems in his f*cking mind? Nah! I don't think so.
It really was refreshing when I went to hit one of the biggest mall in town yesterday and had a quality girl time with my bestfriend. Watching movie, break fasting, and shopping was totally a big relief and distraction. No boys, no studies, no college, no problems. Just fun. I got my eyes set on this printed pencil skirt, but ended up buying a trousers from Zara.
ps: my boyfriend doesn't even know that I love blogging since he never ask what my hobby is :o